"SWEET LAZY LIFE"

The Sweetest Days!!!

Moving On!!! Better with time

If you get a chance, listen to Prince sing "Better with Time". I used to be SO SO SO in love with Prince. I have gone through so many stages with this man that I feel like I know him through his music.

This latest cut, reminds me of the old Prince but with a modern twist. He's grown and matured. Rightfully so. It's been almost 30 years.

I often find myself looking back and thinking of the quote good ole days. But as I get older, I realize these days ARE the good ole days. If we are here to look back and remember, we are blessed. So yes, it gets better with time.

Merry Christmas! Happy Holidays! Feliz Navidad! Joyeaux Noel! Happy Kwanzaa!

I am very grateful for this holiday season. I have so much to thank God for. My health. My wealth. My strength. My family and friends. This year has taught me many truths. I've aged and become wiser. I've learned from mistakes. I've listened to God. I've been conscious and aware. I've reflected. I've prayed. I've leaped forward. I've stood still. I've paid attention to detail. I've seen the big picture. I've been honest with myself. I've forgiven. I've moved forward. I've laughed at myself. I've cried. I've thought about death a lot. I've thought about life a lot.

There is a voice within me. She is complex yet she simply wants to be heard. I hear you girl. I'm listening to you now and forever more.

Brittini's heading back to KU

This is my niece, Brittini who is heading back to Kansas University in Lawrence for her sophomore year.
Man, I remember those days at Grambling like it was yesterday.
How things have changed for college students.
Brittini will be living in campus apartments. They are REAL apartments.
I lived in Jones hall at Grambling and let me tell you, it was no apartment!
I still have nightmares of the roaches and small space like a prison cell.
This child will have her own bathroom.
I am proud of Brittini. She plans to study medicine.

"Mr. Demil, We're ready for our close up."

This picture is so goofy to me, but I love it! Ian is into taking pictures and we captured this one while watching the pink panther.
I have never published a photo of myself without make up, so I really must love this shot.
Ian makes it all worthwhile.



This is David Haley with me at my Aunt Emma's house in Kansas City, Kansas recently.
David is the great grandson of Alex Haley. He's in the state senate in KS and hopes to get to Washington with Obama.
It's funny looking at this picture because I looked at how much we've aged. I knew David in my 20's.
He's a good guy and when he makes it to D.C., I got some funny stories to sell.

Squash the gossip!!!

Ian and I at the Snowden Grove carnival in Southaven.


I try not to gossip. People say things and I listen. I may make a comment, but I look for something positive or nuetral to say. After years in the public eye, I know what unwarranted negative opinions feel like.
Recently, someone was just gossiping away and I remembered this quote...
"small minds talk about people, average minds talk about things, great minds talk about ideas." I don't know who to contribute the quote to but I just love it.
I added my own line on at the end....Exceptional minds turns those ideas into action!

Hank & Clay graduate and Ian turns 4!

Ian chillin in his 2009 shades at the graduation breakfast.

Dabney and Daniel Hamner graduated from Peabody Magnet school in Alexandria, La.
Dabney III aka Hank (right) was the valedictorian. You just go!

Yeah, I brush my teeth and I'm turning 4!

Ian Ian Ian

Ian has been a trip this week. He's been non compliant during his therapy sessions this week.
So far so good on the diet. He's taking to veggie chips really well and yesterday I cut up green beans in his spaghetti and he ate it all.
He starts swimming lessons Monday!

Dealing with Autism

I am learning how to handle my son having autism one step at a time. Right now my journey is taking me on the step to helping his diet. For a long time, Ian wouldn't eat much of anything. I was so happy to have him eat I didn't care what it was. So now that's he's addicted to chicken nuggets, pizza, cookies and cream of wheat I find myself knowing I HAVE TO CHANGE HIS DIET.
I am going to have to do it gradually. My first step is to replace the cream of wheat with a gluten casein free hot cereal equivalent.
I'll let you know how it turns out.

Ian's turning 4!

Wow, time really does move on. Can you believe it's been four years since I went to the hospital on a Wednesday morning and came home with a baby boy on Saturday.
Well, he's doing well and saying something everyday to make me laugh.
Laugh for today: "Mr. Brian is too big to come to the birthday party."
Brian is Ian's ABA therapist.:~).

Vieques, Puerto Rico

Oh I love this place! We took a ferry to this little island which is across from Farjardo. This was an authentic experience. To quote Macy Gray..."having money shole is nice."
We went to a local festival where I danced like a drunk woman. Oh yeah, I was drunk!
There is a video that will never show up on you tube! What happens in Puerto Rico stays in Puerto Rico!

Dabney's Favorite

I'm turning into my Momma! (where did I go?)

The above is one of Dabney's favorite pictures of me from the Miss America pageant. I look at this picture and don't remember looking like that and don't even recognize myself.
This is how you know when you're getting old, you start looking at old pictures, you start doing the things you said you would never do. You turn into the people you said you never would. You hear yourself saying the same phrases you heard as a child. "I ain't never gon' say...cause I said so that's why?". When my child asks a question out of curiosity, I'm gonna give 'em real answers to they questions." Yeah right, these days when Ian asks me 125-hundred questions a day, I find myself throwing in a couple of..."because mommy said so Ian and that's why."
Okay where is all this leading?
These days for me are totally new territory. I don't care what anybody says, bringing up a child is the greatest challenge you'll ever face. I have battled with some of the greatest minds in television and fought for some of the toughest contracts. But as my comedian favorite, Katt Williams says..."This____ right here. This____right here:~)."
CHILD REARING IS A TOTALLY DIFFERENT BALL GAME.
My tolerance and patience has not been so tested since I was trying to get my first job in TV and willing to go to Bend, Oregon. (And you know they're probably just accepting Michelle Obama there...so you know I didn't stand a chance in 1990.)
Some days with Ian require me to call upon the spirit of my ancestors to give me guidance for the landmines I'm dodging everyday.
It's just really weird being this OLD and being a first time parent. Everything in me tells me to follow my gut. Do what feels right to make this child the best he can be.
But the more I push to do what I think is suppose to be so right, it seems forced and wrong.
And somewhere along the way, this child started showing me and saying, just follow my lead, I'll show you what I can do.
So I have to listen, and be patient and not try to predict what he's "suppose" to do. When I do that, I see him becoming what he's meant to be. It makes me a guide to give him the foundation he needs. I get to share his journey and his great possibilities.
I get to witness all that.
WOW.
That is a gift from God.
So when I stop trying to control everything and let go and let God. I start to see my momma in myself. The person I thought had no idea of what was going was really quite aware
That's when I hear myself sounding like her. And see myself looking like her. And that's REALLY scary.
But it's also beautiful.
It took me a long time to get to this ripe. I was in a bottle for a long time. I guess that's why I was so old having a baby.
Oh well, go figure.
I'm grateful.
I'm really grateful.
And it's okay if I'm turning into my momma.

Making Peace

My sister in law, Faye recently passed away after a long bout with breast cancer.
Faye fought a good fight and fought it to the end. She died courageously.
I admire that.
No one likes to think about dying, but we all know it's coming.
I learned a good lesson from Faye. Make your peace while you are living.
Faye and I didn't start off well, but over the years we made peace.
I sat with her one afternoon towards the end.
She was still alive in her spirit, aware and in her right mind. This despite the cancer eating at her body immensely.
I don't know how I will have to face death.
But if I have to fight it, I hope to do as well as Faye.
May her soul rest in peace.