Monday, October 24, 2011

2008 -- Reflections on turning 40!










The following are thoughts I got from three of my friends when I asked people on my blog their thoughts as I was turning 40. It was March, 2008. I marked the big 4-0 by having three celebrations: One in January, February and then finally in March for my actual bday, March 4.
I like that my bday is March fourth...I take it as a sign to move forward, forge ahead to new adventures, and not to be afraid! I am not alone!
I'm turning 43 on my next annual. I'm not sure how I'll celebrate, but I realize getting older is fun!


Shaunne Baker:

Well, What do I think? I have come to realize that everything I do, will do, & have done, Has all been a big part of what makes me who I am. All of my steps have been ordered already. I am learning how to Be Sill and know That God is in Control! I am learning to Listen!

LaShonda Marshall:

On my journey to 40 I am becoming more in tuned with my spirit. I have realized that the only things that matter to me are God, Family and Friends, so I put alot of energy into them. For instance, being a mom is the best thing that has happened to me. There is no greater reward.

I also find myself not being afraid. I used to be frightened of not having a mate, not having enough for retirement, if IBM will be having lay offs etc... Now, I take life as it comes. I am not irresponsible, but, I realize the things I cannot change, I don't, and the things I can change I do, like..... staying healthy mentally, physcially and spiritually.

Oh and my friends....... they make me complete. They bring out every emotion in me. And lucky for me I will be able to see them all in the ATL March 6th thru March 9th. Pam, please do the Michael Jackson and Janet Jackson while we are there, one more time please!!!!!

Staci Y. Lightfoot:


I guess the older I get the more I start to see things differently. The things that were important 10, 5 or even 2 years ago are no longer important. I will be 40 in 8 months and I am really looking forward to turning 40. Why? Because God has been so good to me in spite of myself. I had the wonderful opportunity to attend and graduate from the best HBCU In the land. I made great friends and even a few enemies!!! I lived, loved, cried, played, traveled and loved some more. I am still in touch with some of those “special” friends today. I lost one last year to breast cancer so I made a special effort to reconnect with friends that I had not talked to in years. (thanks pmack) It has truly been wonderful reconnecting, catching up and sharing each others blessings. Isn’t that what it is all about? I guess the older I get the more I realize that it is not all about me. What is God’s true purpose for my life? I know that I am a wife and a mother, but what else does he want me to do. My goal is to try to be more like him everyday. I really want to be in his will because at the end of the day that is all that matters.

The person who says it cannot be done should not interrupt the person who is doing it.

Friday, October 07, 2011

Believe God!

It's taken me a long time to really believe God. To truly let go and let him. It's been a struggle for me to let go of what I thought I was controlling, primarily my life. And in all of my errors and mistakes, my life is still so richly blessed. God IS all the things we've known and I finally believe him!
I feel empowered by letting go. Like i lost a heavy weight.
It's been hard for me to claim I'm a Christian or even close to what God is like. It's almost sacrilegious to me. I can't compare myself to God. And despite all my flaws, he STILL loves me?
That had been hard for me to believe sometimes. But my faith always kept me strong.
Now I have this new gift of belief and I see myself becoming more (dare I say?) God like.
I, after much struggling with anger and forgiveness and holding grudges, am forgiving people...living people and not just those who are dead.
And it feels good!
It's likely a little thing to God, but it's monumental to me!